This one was difficult for me because no scent really reminds me of her. The pink blanket seen in all of these pictures used to smell like her. She was wrapped in this blanket the first time I saw and held her. Unfortunately the blanket no longer smells like her, but for many months her smell lingered. I slept with that blanket for well over a year. To this day, it hangs on the headboard just above my side of the bed.
Above all, he has been my rock. My husband has been by my side through everything, not just te loss of our daughter. I've been lucky enough to have a large support system since she died. My mother and step-father, my in laws and a few select friends. I wish I had a picture of everyone together but I don't.
The first time I felt her move, I remember saying it felt like butterfly wings. After she died, butterflies became her symbol. Every year on her birthday it seems as though butterflies are everywhere. This little beauty was captured by one of my best friends on Addie's first birthday when she was doing a newborn shoot. Butterflies hold a special place in my heart and always will. ♥
These 2 phrases, well meaning or not, hurt the worst. First of all, don't tell me there's a better place for my daughter other than her momma's arms. That was so hard for me to fathom...still is. The second phrase I absolutely hated. I know part of the hatred comes from a lack of faith and relationship with God. He didn't NEED my little girl. I NEEDED her.
Around our house we have so many reminders of her, but my favorite memorial(s) to her has to be her gardens. I think its because I created them. I always feel closer to her when I'm working in the gardens. These are some of the gladiolas I planted. They're August's birth flower and so gorgeous!
This is a picture of me taken about a month before I found out I was pregnant with Addie. I had no idea how much my life would change in less than a year. Here I was, enjoying vacation in San Diego, no worries, no fears.... Things can change so quickly.
I'm participating in Carly Marie's Capture Your Grief to celebrate Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. I missed the sunrise because a certain rainbow was hungry, but this is just beautiful. It was very foggy this morning anyway. so I doubt the sunrise would've been visible.