Happy birthday sweet girl

I can't believe it...it's been 3 years.  Three long years since I first met you.  It just doesn't seem right.  Yesterday was a quiet day.  I couldn't bring myself to talk about you, though you were certainly on my mind.  For some reason, this birthday was hard.  I don't know why....  It was almost as hard as your first.

Your short life will always matter to so many people.  Do you realize that, in the 3 years since your death, we've raised nearly $5000 for the March of Dimes?  And momma does other things in your honor, such as stamping necklaces for grieving mommas just like me.  It may not be the HUGE mark that so many parents wish for, but a mark all the same.

I will always miss you, that will never change.  I will always wonder what you would be like and how life would be different if you had lived.  But most of all, I will always love you.  Though I never truly got to know you, that love will never change.  You are my daughter, my first born, and you will always have that piece of my heart.

I love you sweet girl.  Happy birthday

Pics from Grammy P

One year photo shoot

Some days it's hard to believe my baby boy is a toddler now.  How is it that nearly 14 months have gone by already.  My beautiful friend and photographer traveled from Pittsburgh to shoot these gorgeous photos.  Love you Cindy!  Check her out, and, if you live in the greater Pittsburgh area, think about contacting her.  She'll do an awesome job!  Cindy Kimble Photography

Sending love to big sis

Yes, I'm cutie and I know it

Rub a dub dub, Squirmy in a tub

No I don't wanna sit still

All over the place

Lately my emotions have been all over the place.  It seems as though her birthday is affecting me more this year than last.  Of course, last year I had a newborn to care for, but I'm not suite sure what the significance of this year is.

I don't know where to go with it...I'm at a loss with how the grief is hitting me.  I miss her so much.