Well, today's the day. It's your first birthday kiddo. This time last year, the anesthesiologist was trying to get my spinal block to work for the second time (it's 9:26am as I'm writing this but probably won't post until later because I have to add pictures). You were born at 9:47am after 36 looooooooong weeks of worry and waiting.
I've had a hard time with your birthday. Not only are you growing so fast, but also I wasn't sure how to act. I guess I didn't know a first birthday should be a happy occasion. I mean, I DO know, but for my kids it wasn't. At least not until now.
I love you more than you will ever know. It doesn't seem right that I'm this happy, but I am. Though I will always miss your sister, you bring me the joy I had always imagined with her.
Happy first birthday Joshua!
Fallon Jade Rilling
4 days ago