15 months and a feeling of gratitude

Sweet Addie,
     I'm a little late posting this, I know.  It's been a crazy weekend with Thanksgiving and all.  But, happy 15 months baby girl.  Do you know how much I missed not having a rambunctious 15 month old to chase while I was preparing Thanksgiving dinner?  There will always be something missing in my life...no matter how many children we have, there should always be one more.
     I barely remember this time last year.  I was still in such a haze...hated the fact that the holidays were coming closer and you weren't here to see it.  Its my favorite time of the year and I hated it.  I have to say, though, this year I am looking forward to the holiday season once again.  I am thankful for the fact that you graced our lives, even for a short time.  You've helped me see the small things in life and appreciate what I have.  Yes, I often find myself dwelling on what I have lost, but it's not nearly as hard to remember what I have.  YOU taught me that...YOU taught me what it is to love unconditionally...YOU taught me what it means to be truly grateful...YOU taught me to love with my whole heart (or what's left of it).  YOU have made more of a difference in my life than I will ever understand.
     I love you and miss you sweet girl.

Love,
Momma