So, thanks to Hurricane Irene, we won't be hitting the Jersey coast. I couldn't care less about the friggin storm, but I know it wouldn't be safe to be there. I'm extremely disappointed. This was kind of our thing. Maybe I'm an idiot linking her with a lighthouse trip, but it just made sense to me. She was there on our first lighthouse trip, so why not celebrate her life with another. Hopefully, though we can make this particular trip soon. Instead, we've booked a weekend at the Canaan Valley resort in WV. Anything to get us out of the house. I can't be stuck here. So maybe change will be good.
I didn't sleep well last night, but I guess I hadn't expected to. I keep hearing Dr. Wiley's words, over and over again. No matter how foggy that day is, his words ring through loud and clear..."I see no cardiac activity." Plain, simple, devastating. I wish I could forget. I've been reliving that day over and over. And I don't see it ending anytime soon.
Oh how I wish things were different. I miss you...more than you will ever know.
Fallon Jade Rilling
2 days ago