So, I've been kinda quiet this weekend. Normally I take part in Happy List Saturdays, but this week, I just couldn't muster up a list. Today marks 7 months since I said hello and goodbye to my little girl. I tried to stay busy today. I've been cleaning and baking to keep my mind off of things. More baking than cleaning, because it's much more fun. But as I was baking I realized what I was missing....Baking, cooking and love of being in the kitchen was something I wanted to teach my daughter at a very early age. I wanted to share it all with her...show her what it is to be passionate about something. Show her how to get her little hands dirty. Show her how to use my favorite kitchen tools. Just to spend time with her, doing one of my favorite things in the world. So, needless to say, baking didn't do what I wanted it to. But, the people at work will enjoy the fruits of my labor tomorrow. I have 8 dozen, made from scratch peanut butter cookies and chocolate chip cookies for everyone to eat. Need them out of my house so I don't eat them. :)
My sweet baby girl,
Hard to believe its been 7 months. Its both flown by and taken forever to pass. I miss you. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I wonder what you would look like, what you would be doing now...would you be crawling yet? Have said your first word? Enjoyed some of Momma's homemade baby food? Or would Daddy be stealing you from me...bundling you up and taking you with him out to the garage to work on the golf cart...showing you how to do some basic wiring, or change a tire. Teaching you all the things every girl should know.
We picked out some bulbs for your garden today. Hopefully this was the last snow we will have for awhile. I want to be able to get started on planting the flowers so they will bloom this year. We have gladiolas, which are August's birth flower that will be going in front of the house. We also bought bulbs for echinaecea and a few other butterfly attracting flowers. I think I'm also going to buy seeds for purple sweetpeas and maybe some purple pansies. The garden is going to go around the pear tree in the front yard, right where everyone can see it.
Seven months...how have I survived without you? I love you.
Fallon Jade Rilling
4 days ago