Friday, March 11, 2011

Bright spots on a dark day...


     I love this quote...and the picture is just beautiful.  Thank you Monica from Honoring Our Angels for posting it.  I had a rough day yesterday.  I know part of it is because I haven't been sleeping very well.  Dreaming way too much.  Sometimes I wish I could just shut my brain off.  My mood really fit the weather.  It was dreary and rainy; complete gloom engulfed me.  Several times I had to fight off tears at work.  I cried the whole way home.  Sometimes I wonder how I even get home safely.  I went to bed last night at 6:30.  I was finally able to sleep, thanks to Ambien.  I HATE taking meds but I need to sometimes, even if for my own sanity.  I love my hubs though.  He doesn't really say anything...he just knows.  Gives me big hugs, will just sit with me for awhile.  He is my biggest bright spot.
     My second bright spot yesterday was being greeted by a package addressed to "Addison's Mommy" that contained 11 little butterflies.  The beautiful Raquel, Jeremiah and Matthew's mom, made 11 memorial butterflies, one for Addie and one for each of my memory boxes.  They are absolutely gorgeous!  Thank you so much Raquel!

     Another great thing happened yesterday...Melissa from Laken's Bears (and Laken's mommy) has offered to provide stuffed bears for my memory boxes in honor of her daughter.  These boxes really are out growing the boxes!  They're going to be more like care packages than boxes.  But you know what?  I don't care.  I am completely flabbergasted at the response I received from family and friends after finally announcing my project.  It really brings tears to my eyes.  I am amazed by the response and so truly grateful to the people who are helping me keep Addie's memory alive.
     I'll be completely took me a long time to "announce" my project; mainly because I was worried about the reaction from my family and friends when they read my blog.  I've bared my soul on this blog; its no holds barred some days.  But, I've finally realized that this blog may help my family friends understand me a little better.  I can express my emotions in writing better than I ever could in spoken words.
     Despite my gloom yesterday, I was happy to have these bright moments in my day.  Its moments like those that help me get through the darkness.


DandelionBreeze said...

Sound like gorgeous bright moments :) Love your boxes idea & so nice to have such beautiful things to put in them :)) Great that you've had such a positive response from your family, friends and other BLM's. Sending you my love & good wishes for your project from Australia xoxo

Becky said...

so glad you are having a good day and I know I've commented before that your boxes are such a great thing you are doing and so happy you have had such wonderful responses from family and friends. Addie must be so proud!

Missy said...

I'm glad you had some bright moments in your day. The boxes are wonderful and a great place to focus your energy. I may need to take a cue from your strength. All my love to you mama!

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