A well needed vacation ended with my first Mother's Day. A day I should have been enjoying with my little girl instead of trying to convince myself that I am really a mother. I have struggled with this. Am I really a mom? After all, what do I have to show the fact that I carried a child for 9 months...what do I have to display to the world other than a few pictures and a scar on my belly. Memories and pictures can't take the place of a warm chubby baby in my arms. It was certainly a Mother's Day to forget.
Thank you to those few who chose to wish me a Happy Mother's Day and sent cards or flowers. I do appreciate it. I know I'm being very negative about yesterday, but I really do appreciate the fact that there are people out there who care enough to remember her and remember that she was here, even if only for a short time.
I hope everyone had an ok week. I know it hasn't been an easy one for any of us. I will try to catch up on all the blog posts, but I probably won't get to them all. I will leave you with a few pics from my vacation. I had hoped to be able to write some names in the sand but I didn't really have a lot of beach time on the cruise. I think I'm going to pick a few choice pictures and do graphics with angel names. Stay tuned for that post. In the mean time, here are some of my fave pics from our cruise to the Bahamas.
|A kiss and a drink to celebrate 5 years of marriage|
|Our room with a view|
|Dinner at David's Steakhouse on board the ship.|
|Me holding an alligator|
|Relaxing with the hubs|
|Formal night on the ship...bad picture of me|
|Enjoying the sunset on our balcony|
|My mom and stepdad at David's|
|A pod of Atlantic spotted dolphins decided to play in the wake of our ship. Pretty cool!|
|Arriving in Nassau|
|Sunset in Nassau|
|Me hugging Andy the dolphin...gorgeous, smart creatures! I love dolphins!|
|Sunrise in Freeport|
|My mom and stepdad in Freeport|
|P during our Jeep tour of Freeport|
|Hibiscus at the Garden of the Groves in Freeport|
|Thunderheads over the Atlantic Ocean|