She sent us a big wink the other day. We spent the long weekend camping with my family. I was sitting in my mom and dad's camper when P comes knocking on the window. Lo and behold, on his hat, there sits a butterfly. She stayed there for a long time. A wink?! I think so...
We spent a lot of time around the campfire too. There's just something so soothing about a crackling fire (and s'mores and roasting weenies!). So relaxing...just what I needed. Time with family and friends can cure just about anything.
|Good times with great friends and family|
|Jazz having his breakfast treat: sausage gravy and biscuits|
As I said, I've been struggling a lot lately with her upcoming birthday. I want to have a birthday party, but I don't even know where to start. I don't even know how to bring up the subject with the rest of my family, not even P. I almost feel silly even thinking about planning her party. But how is it silly? She's my daughter, why shouldn't we have a party for her? I just don;t know where or how to begin.
And, with her first birthday looming around the corner, so are the birthdays for little Aaron and Miss Layla. Their moms and I were pregnant together last year. They are 2 of my best friends and I had hoped our children would be just as close. Now, an Evite invitation sits in my email, just waiting to be answered. It's an invitation to Layla's first birthday party. I don't think I can do it. I've already promised Jess I would help out in any way I can, but I don't think I can do it. Every time I go to RSVP, I can't...my eyes well up and I start shaking. The last thing I want to do is turn into a blubbering fool in the middle of her birthday party. But, I don't want to hurt Jessica's feelings either. She has been so great to me, more than I can say for most of my so-called friends. I have no idea what to do...why can't this just be easier?