You know, I understand how some people may not know or even forget about what happened to my daughter. But my own family? I had a family member ask me recently if I was ready for Halloween and the holidays...HELL NO I'm not ready for the holidays. Who wants to spend the holidays without your child?! I certainly don't. If I could, I would completely skip the holidays this year. My mom had already purchased Addie's "My First Christmas" outfit, plus a friend of mine had given me the cutest little fur trimmed red dress. For Halloween, we wanted to dress her as a ladybug. But, instead I'm writing this stupid post on my blog. Its just not right. How can anyone think I'm ready to face the holidays?