No, not that, get your mind out of the gutter, haha. I ordered Addie a stocking to match ours. It probably won't be here before Christmas but it doesn't matter. I don't think I would be strong enough to look at it every day...but I know I'll hang it next year. The fact is that she is, and always will be, a member of my family. Still don't know if I will get a "First Christmas" ornament or not though. I'm just happy that I finally made the decision to order the stocking. I never thought something so little, even so meaningless, would become such a big deal and such a hard decision to make.