On the other hand, I've been gearing myself up for "E2's" arrival. Per my SIL, her doctor says any day now. I am excited for his arrival, but I'm scared at my own reaction. I haven't held a newborn since Addie. Yes, I've held babies, but not a newborn. I don't know how I will react when I finally get to hold him...or if I will at all. I haven't decided yet, but I'm almost sure that I want to hold him. I apologized to her today for the moodiness. I can't believe it took me this long to do it. I guess I didn't want to face the fact that I was being a bitch...I knew I was I just didn't want to admit it. I hope she can forgive me for it, because I really don't mean to be a bitch...it's just been so hard to be around her. Especially considering she told us she was pregnant the day after I got home from the hospital. She didn't do that on purpose...she was to the point where she was starting to show and couldn't hide it any longer, so I can't blame her for that. Since then, I know I haven't been the nicest person to her...but I'm trying, and I explained that today. I just hope she understands.